Wednesday, May 04, 2005
wouldn't it be nice.
the jingle for the most recent cadbury advert is ringing constantly in my head.wouldn't it be nice if the world was cadbury...
thing is, i don't remember what comes after this line. bah!
anyhow, i don't remember celebrating the very first birthday of this blog and i never realised how long i'd been blogging for until i saw the archieves with entries dating as far back as february 2004.
and yes, if i haven't mentioned already, i'm living in a lethargic and limpy post-exams mode. well basically, i watch tv the whole day, and i survive on just water and one heavy meal a day. oh and btw, i just went jogging at 530 in the evening and i almost died... the shortness of breath got up with me merely just 5 minutes into my run. then again, i wasn't conscious of how fast/slow i was running, but i had a tugging feeling that i looked as though i was only having a leisure slow jog when deep inside my system, my heart was beating wildy, and i wondered if i were to suffer from a sudden heart-attack any time then. my jogging enthusiasm lasted for a mere 10 minutes. hahaha. i ended up walking like the rest of the elderly people that i passed by while i was jogging. while walking back to my block, i felt the accumulation of lactate in my feet and for the first time, i really thought i was going to faint any moment. hm. how fit ya. don't think i'd be able to do a 2.4km run within 15 minutes now if you ask me. for once, i'm realising how old i'm becoming, and all the ailments that come with age. geesh.
yeppos. don't really have much to say now. my mind's still suffering from alittle truma from that near-fainting experience.
think i'll just leave alittle something which i found quite interesting from a non-psychology book. reading it makes me re-think of what i felt before i entered the examination hall for a particular paper. hahaha.
i must say a word about fear. it is life's only true opponent. only fear can defeat life. it is a clever, trecherous adversary, how well i know. it has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy. it goes for your weakest spot, which it finds with unerring ease. it begins in your mind, always. one moment you are feeling calm, self-possesed, happy. then fear, disguised in the garb of mild-mannered doubt, slips into your mind like a spy. Doubt meets disbelief and disbelief tries to push it out. but disbelief is a poorly armed foot soldier. doubt always does away with it with little trouble. you become anxious. reason comes to do battle for you. you are reassured. reason is fully equipped with the latest weapons technology. but, to your amazement, despite superior tactics and a number of undeniable victories, reason is laid low. you feel yourself weakening, wavering. your anxiety becomes dread.
sarah at 9:20 pm