Saturday, November 04, 2006
time...make this go on forever.
it's only the first week of november and already, christmas decorations are up in takashimaya.
the gigantic christmas tree, laced with lovely christmasy lights along the fringes, strategically placed right smack in the middle of the atrium... is almost impossible to miss.
seeing orchard road dolled up for christmas never fails to get me into a cheery yet nostalgic mood.
i love christmas.
christmas is such a happy occassion. but in all honesty, what is there to be happy about?
seeing the christmas decorations make me realise how quickly my time is passing me, and makes me ponder about what have i been doing with my time this past year. did i make a difference to anyone's life? did i make a difference to anything?
sadly, i think not.
i hate how unfair this world is. how the disparity between my life and some other kid's life in Africa or Myanmmar or even Cambodia is so big, yet i'll never be able to fill the void or effect any change however hard i may try.
i hate how fast i'm growing up. how the more i try to resist change, the more easily they come onto me, making me stumble on them one after another, forcing me to let go of a part of me that i so dearly want to retain for fear that i'll gradually lose myself altogether. memory, memory is the only thing we'll be able to carry with us in the journey of life, yet this same memory, this memory that helps us remember who we are, will eventually be worn off with time. until then, what's left of our past will only be our very presence in the lives of those we've loved and changed.
how little remains of the man i once was, save the memory of him! But remembering is only a new form of suffering.
-Charles Baudelaire, La Fanfarlo~
sarah at 11:08 pm
Thursday, November 02, 2006
favourite things...im hooked on prison break now. The US is already almost into half of season 2 while we're still stuck at episode 7 here in sg. ah wells, then again there's bearshare, youtube and what-not means to get those episode clips ya. ^_^ anyhow, a tribute to prison break, and one of my favourite couples on TV ever, apart from Rory and Logan that is. :)
sarah at 12:17 am